I am writing this letter to my husband on our anniversary. Seven years ago, we promised to love each other and be there for one another through the good and the bad. And that’s how it has been ever since.
Things between us actually started much earlier as we opened our tenth year together with our wedding. I’ve never thought that I would find the love of my life in England, or that I would once live anywhere other than in the country I was born in. It just wasn’t something I thought about, I just went with the flow. This wind first took me to Germany, where I lived for several years. And from there on to England where I’ve lived ever since.
And it’s here that I met my husband. It was seven months after I moved to the country. When I arrived, my English was non-existent. But luckily I spoke a few other languages already which made learning another easier. And English was also something I enjoyed studying. However, you can imagine that due to my broken English our relationship was often funny, sometimes frustrating, at the beginning. But we got through it and survived the critical seven years (I heard that the seventh year is a critical one for relationships) and are still going.
So here I am hubby, writing this letter to you, my beloved husband, on the day of our seventh wedding anniversary. I thank you for walking into my life and thank God that He put you there. When I saw you the first time it was so easy to talk to you, despite my broken English. It was as if we had known each other forever. It wasn’t always easy at the beginning, with different languages, cultures and traditions… There was a lot we both had to get used to, but it didn’t scare either of us. Maybe because whilst some things you can learn, respect and personality are something that has to click.
And clicked between us, it did. My insecurities were huge. Before I moved away from Germany I started to have doubts about my relationship there. Something inside me awoke. I finally started to see things as they were, not how I wanted them to be. And every day after I left Germany it became clearer to me that the man who was waiting there for me wasn’t a man that I would ever want to ever marry. I knew that coming to England was also therefore an escape for me. If I had stayed in Germany I don’t think it would have been possible for me to escape from an abusive relationship. So I knew that for the sake of my own well-being I had to leave and move far enough to be free again.
So I came to England where a few months later I met you. Meeting you was like meeting an angel who has healed my heart and showed me that there are people who I can trust without being scared that I would be a victim of betrayal again. That trust in a relationship is not to be misused, rather it is the key to love which allows both partners to be open and honest with each other. And so you became my best friend, my soulmate and I have the type of relationship I always wanted. Perhaps not always perfect, but real. A journey of love between two people. And no journey is always easy, but it is a journey with the man I want to walk it with.
You are a man with the biggest heart, a man I respect, love and cherish. You know how to make me smile when all I want is to cry. I come to you for hugs when it hurts and I know that you would do anything to make my life easier. My mum always said that she was praying for me to meet a good husband. I know that she would be so happy to know that we walked to the altar together to take our vows. And whilst it wasn’t easy to not have her there on our wedding day, I know that she was there in spirit and smiled at us from up there.
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As I write this letter to you, my beloved husband, I want to tell you how much I love and admire you. Your perspective on things (and how much I don’t like to admit when you are right every time), your calm nature that can put me at ease when I start to panic, and your thoughtful and kind spirit that gives me reassurance in times of uncertainty. I often ask myself how I deserved you and thank God for sending me another angel into my life. So now I’ve got two, one in heaven and one sharing his life with me. And I feel so blessed. I thank God every night for putting the best man I could ever wish for into my life.
I know that I’m not perfect, but then who is? But as you say, we are perfect for each other. Life isn’t always easy or fair and we have witnessed it enough times. But we have proved that together we can overcome any struggles. That our love carries us through any challenges.
You were there for me when I lost the closest person in my life, my mum. You showered me with your love and warmth when I was in tears. When I was going through the hardest time of my life.
And then, the whole world was turned upside down as my accident changed our lives in a split second. The pandemic separated us whilst I was in the hospital. But you were soon there by my side again as I tried to face my fears. With your help, I left the safety of hospital walls’ and stepped outside. You were there when another trauma walked into my life. When it was taking so much away from me again. You were there by my side when I doubted myself if I would ever be able to be this carefree person again. You held my hand, offered your shoulder for me to cry on, gave me a hug and showed me that you believed in me.
I remember your words when you said that this is what a partner is for. Being there for each other through good and bad. But I know that not every partner would have done this. And for this, I appreciate you. You carried me to the bathroom when I couldn’t walk, helped me to get dressed when I wasn’t able to do so myself and cooked me my favourite meals just to make my day brighter. You were my carer, my taxi driver, my cook, my cleaner, my supporter, my safe place. And you were there, and still are, with a smile, patience, kindness and a spark in your eyes.
This is the same spark that you had in your eyes when I fell in love with you. And I know that you didn’t sign up for all of this. And maybe you would have run a mile the first time we met if you knew what your life would be like. That it wouldn’t always be about laughter, romance and candlelight dinners…but then how boring would this be? Maybe we would even have missed all the challenges that life has thrown at us.
I could go on and on in this letter to you, my beloved husband, about how much I love you and what an amazing man you are. But then you were never the one with lots of words. So I will end this anniversary letter to you, my beloved husband, with a huge thank you for simply being you. And a big thank you to God for bringing you into my life. And I pray for many more years together. Because whilst I don’t know what the future holds, I know that whatever it may be I want to face it with you.
Happy Anniversary, hubby!
With love, today and always
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