Feeling Like a Burden? Read How to Get Rid of These Dark Thoughts

 Feeling Like a Burden?
Read how to get rid of these dark thoughts

 

Recovering from a traumatic event is a long process that often involves both mental and physical recovery. On your path to recovery you may often worry that events in life might not just be taking a toll on yourself but also on those around you. You may start to feel like a burden.

This has happened to me when I got back from hospital. Of course I was happy to be at home, even though adapting to the new ways of life wasn’t easy, and certainly not pain free. From the start we tried to set up a routine; we drew a timetable for me so my husband could organise his workload around me. We would get up in the morning and he would help me with washing and getting dressed. He would then make me breakfast and later lunch and dinner. We would have those together – which was nice, but I’d see every day how busy and exhausted he was. I’d suggested that he should take some time off – from work & me. I didn’t want him to get overloaded and it was obvious that he needed some downtime. Who wouldn’t? He had some important deadlines to meet at work and was looking also after me. I was making progress, but it went slowly – as expected, given the level of pain I was still in. I couldn’t look after myself so started to feel like a burden.

 

Feeling like a Burden         

With the busy schedule of my hubby, his care for me, my feelings of being a burden…it all became too much. It was my first weekend back home when I called him to come in from his home office where he worked on his deadline as I needed help. When he came to help me, it was obvious that work wasn’t going as he would wish. He’d had enough and I wasn’t of much help either. It didn’t need much before we both lost control – he was exhausted, and I felt like a burden.

 

 

It was my first weekend back home and we were both tired and exhausted. I was in pain and he had too much on his shoulders. I just couldn’t help myself. The feeling of being a burden was so strong. It was an awful feeling. It grew inside me ever since I had got back from the hospital. I had this feeling already in hospital. I apologised to a nurse for being such a pain. However, her kind words reassured me that they are there to help me and I slowly got used to accepting help from others. Nevertheless, I had enough by the time I got home. I wanted to be able to do things for myself independently. It wasn’t my husband’s job to look after me or was it? I am not a feminist, but I just wanted to be an independent woman again. I didn’t want to be a burden.

The truth is however, that we can’t always do everything alone. God did not design us to carry our burden alone. We just simply can’t juggle life’s hardship without God. So we really need to rely on God, he is here for us every time. 

 

 

The burden becomes lighter when it is shared by love

Yet, despite the knowledge that God loves us, and his love is unconditional, it is still very easy to slip into the feeling of being a burden. However, realising it allows us start to act. The first step is to talk about it, to communicate it. Don’t rob someone of the opportunity to help you carry your burden. Reach out to family, friends, a counsellor, or a pastor. Speak to God, tell him what your burdens are, cry out in prayer. It is essential to do so.

As it turned out it felt good to talk and open up about it to my husband. I didn’t expect the reaction I got from him. My hubby came closer to me and gave me a hug. I needed this hug so much. He pulled me closer and started to smile: “You silly one, I love you, we are married. Remember the words – in good and in bad? Yes, it’s a hard time right now but it doesn’t mean that helping you bothers me. Not once have I said anything about having to help you… Yes, I wasn’t in my best mood today and it has been a very busy week but I’m here for you because I want to. Because this is what marriage is about. I’m sure you would have done the same for me. No one said the next few months would be easy, but things will get easier as you make progress in your recovery.  We’ll get there” and he is right, we’ll get there because of love.

 

 

 

Remember: You aren’t a burden

Thereupon if you feel that you’re a burden know that you are not. You’re a human being, a child of God. Know that you aren’t a burden; you have a burden. You carry your burden as a result of what has happened to you. After all, you haven’t chosen to have it. Doing your best is therefore all you can do. It is important to take every step as it comes. You need to give yourself realistic goals you strive to achieve and progress. You are doing the best you can – your closest ones know it, and you know it too! Don’t slap yourself in the face every time you feel like a burden. You aren’t, so get rid of those dark thoughts and concentrate on doing your best.

With love you will get through it – love from others, from God and yourself. And this is important – be kind to yourself and focus on the positives in your life and on your achievements. This will help you to feel less like a burden as each day passes. Your closest want to have you in their lives. They love you, even in these hard times, they would be devastated without you. They would miss you if they didn’t have you around and wouldn’t want to trade the days with you for anything.

 

This works against these Dark Thoughts

Now it’s up to you to love yourself as much as your closest ones love you. Nothing else helps against those negative thoughts more than love. Give yourself a hug. Hug yourself – place your right hand under your left arm so you can feel your heart and your left hand on your right shoulder and remain so for a few seconds. Every time I do it, I feel this soothing effect. It helps me to accept myself as I am. I feel connected with myself, with God and it also enables me to see the brighter side of life. So why not to try it? Surely, you are worth it:) 

 

Thank you and till the next blog post:)

*Do you struggle with the feeling that you’re a burden? What does help you to avoid feeling that way? Let’s share with a comment below.   

 All Images Curtesy of Sarah K

 

 

28 thoughts on “Feeling Like a Burden? Read How to Get Rid of These Dark Thoughts”

  1. Thank you for this article! I think it's absolutely important to spread this article around bc even people who fell sick during COVID feel guilty about getting sick when the disease seems to miss others. Thank you! Will be sharing to my communities in Eswatini

  2. Thank you! Yes, I know that feeling…but then we have to think that if it would be the other way round we would do the same for others in need…

  3. What a beautiful blog post. I can relate alot after having a traumatic birth experience ending in an emergency c section and 6 days hospital stay. It's safe to say I needed support yet felt like a burden xxx

  4. Thank you, really appreciated. Yes, life is tough but so are we…we just need to learn to accept help that is offered to us and don't feel guilty about it and love ourselves…

  5. Thank you for this positive and up lifting post. It is so fitting right now given the climate of the world and what people are going through. Thank you so much for sharing.

  6. Definitely, we are so grateful to have them in our lives and we need to love ourselves just like their love us! Thank you for your comment and sharing your experience:)

  7. I love this post so much! As someone living with IBD I've had several surgeries and had to rely on the help of others during recovery time. It is easy to fall into the trap of feeling like a burden and trying to speed up your recovery. I still have a hard time asking for help, but being with a loving and caring partner makes a HUGE difference.

  8. Thank you for this article! I think it's absolutely important to spread this article around bc even people who fell sick during COVID feel guilty about getting sick when the disease seems to miss others. Thank you! Will be sharing to my communities in Eswatini

  9. Thank you, really appreciated. Yes, life is tough but so are we…we just need to learn to accept help that is offered to us and don't feel guilty about it and love ourselves…

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